ICE CREAM MAN- by RAYE
So, this producer hit me up on the DM
He told me, “Hey, I really like what you are doing”
He told me, “Come round to the studio, let’s cook it”
He told me, “Come to catch a vibe and make some music”
But when I got there, should’ve heard what he was saying
Tryna touch me, tryna fuck me, I’m not playing
I should’ve left that place as soon as I walked in it
How God damn dare you do that to me, really?
Coming like the ice cream man
‘Til I felt his ice-cold hands
And how I pay the price now, damn
God damn, no what the, God damn
Everything you did, it left me in a ruin
And no, I didn’t say a word, I guess that proves it
I’m a woman, oh, yes
‘Cause I’m a woman
I’m a very fucking brave strong woman
And I’ll be damned if I let a man ruin
How I walk, how I talk, how I do it
Man, I’ve been broken for a moment, I’ve been through it no
It’s even harder to be brave alone
Was a girl, now I’m grown, I’m a woman
A very fucking strong woman
And I was seven
Was 21, was 17, and was 11
It took a while to understand what my consent means
If I was ruthless, they’d be in the penitentiary
But all the stress of being honest wouldn’t help me
I pushed it down, but it was living in me rent free
And then I fell into some things that were unhealthy
A place where no one heard me asking them to help me
Coming like the ice cream man
‘Til I felt his ice-cold hands
And how I pay the price now, damn, God damn
Everything you did, it left me in a ruin
And no, I didn’t say a word, I guess that proves it
I’m a woman
‘Cause I’m a woman
I’m a very fucking brave strong woman
And I’ll be damned if I let a man ruin
How I walk, how I talk, how I do it
Man, I’ve been broken for a moment, I’ve been through it no
It’s even harder to be brave alone
I was a girl, now I’m grown, I’m a woman
A very fucking strong woman, mmh
I wish I could say how I feel, how I felt
And explain why I’m silently blaming myself
‘Cause I put on these faces pretending I’m fine
Then I go to the bathroom and I press rewind
In my head, always going round and round in my head
Your fingerprints stuck a stain on my skin
You made me frame myself for your sins
You pathetic, dead excuse of a man
Ooh-ooh
Yeah, a brave strong woman
Oh-oh, yeah
Eh-eh, ay, oh, oh, oh
And I’ll be damned if I let a man ruin, oh
I’m a very fucking brave strong woman, yeah
8 Marzo 2023.